I always feel terrible when I neglect my bloggy blog but I have been sick and not feeling like doing too much! I was fighting a cold for several days and in the middle of last week, it took over! I was pretty miserable for a few days with an aching ear/head and body, crazy congestion and a cough.
Now I'm left with crazy congestion, a cough and no voice! But I am so glad I felt well enough to go out with my precious family today.
Here was our Friday night family fun:) Eating homemade pizza and playing Scrabble Junior!
This morning the boys brought special gifts to me when I was still in bed! They both made books at school and they were SO cute! I will be saving them forever.
Samuel's was a flip book with several reasons why he loves me. A few reasons were that I help him with his homework, I snuggle with him and give him kisses and hugs at nighttime. He drew really great pictures!
Zakkai's was a very cute fill in the blank book. According to Zakkai, I am 60 inches tall (I claim my 3 extra inches!!), weigh 10 pounds, have tan hair, love pizza and hate yogurt (true!) and love to spend time outside with him. He had a really cute picture of the two of us sitting in chairs facing each other. Z was saying, "Let's talk." and I was saying, "Yeah, let's talk." So cute!
You know, I often lamblast myself on my failings as a mother. I am not patient enough, I don't look them in the eye enough when they're talking, I don't spend enough one on one time with them, I say "NO" too much, and on and on. It is so easy to see the negative and focus on it.
But then you get a book from your son telling you he loves you because you kiss him when you tuck him in and help him with his homework and that's enough for him. He still loves me, despite my shortcomings and failings. They still see good in me and want me, ME, to be their mother, even though I don't always do it right.
Wow. It's humbling and gracious and amazing! I love these kiddos SO much. Eliana fell asleep in my arms when we got home from lunch and I held her and just thanked God for even that simple gift; holding my sweet baby girl. I pray this year I can learn to be an even better mother. One who cheers on my children, encourages them and builds them up, shows them how very important they are, one who is a little more patient, a little more quick to say "yes" instead of "no", one who models for them the love of Jesus.
This morning on the way to church, Zakkai said, "Hey! I have a great idea! How about we listen to Mommy every Mother's Day?!" haha!
And to my own Mama, I already told you in the card what you mean to me but let me say it again. You have cheered me on, encouraged me, lifted me up when I needed help, prayed for me, battled with me and for me and have been such a constant love in my life and have shown me Jesus. I love you SO much.
To my Grandma: when I was little, you were my sweet, soft Grandma who spoiled me with sleepovers, McDonald's hamburgers, Snicker's ice cream bars, trips to the cabin and when I grew up you became my friend. You pray for me, encourage me, share your wisdom with me and love me unconditionally. Thank you! I love you!
And to Ben's mom: You gave me your son. A man you raised to love God. A son you prayed over and taught so many values and wonderful things to. He often remembers things that you told him over and over; things he wants to pass down to our children. You also took me in as your daughter with no hesitation. You have loved me, faults and all, over these years and I am so thankful for our relationship! I love you!
Happy Mother's Day!