Friday, May 29, 2009
I first began my working out adventure last May. I have never worked out. Never! I was definitely not the athletic sort back in high school. I much preferred quieter pursuits like playing my piano, reading and hanging with my best friend. Very exciting. But Ben's health was rapidly declining last year due to severe sinus issues (and other things) and he started a crazy diet and started working out a lot and I got motivated to take care of myself! You see, you can be thin and not be in shape! I've had no trouble losing any baby weight after my two boys but I've never been in good shape. We have been gradually improving our eating habits over the past few years to include lots of fresh veggies and fruits, less processed foods and whole grain breads. There is nothing like having kids to make you want to change! But exercise is important, too!
I was SO faithful in working out from the time I decided to go for it last May. I do not go to a gym. There's a few problems with that for me: 1. Money 2. My kids 3. I don't know what the heck I'm doing with all those crazy machines! So, it was exercise DVDs for me! I have several Kathy Smith DVDs that I like to workout to (cheesy 80s music and all:) like a Step workout and one of my favorites, a kickboxing one!
Anyways, faithful to working out 3-4 times a week up until my back injury in January. It's amazing how quickly you can lose all that you worked so hard for! I am starting the 30 day Shred, determined to kick myself back into gear! I'll post from time to time and let you know how I'm coming along on my journey to a rockin', in shape, I-want-to-live-past-50 body!! For now, I'm just trying to find the motivation to hobble off to bed:)
Thursday, May 28, 2009
And who, of course, can resist some fabulous chocolate cake for dessert? Since I did NOT indulge in any cupcakery cupcakes loaded with enough frosting to make 6 children slap happy, I decided to make my own sinful delight at home:) Friends, meet chocolate cake. Chocolate cake, meet my tempted friends.....
1 package of Devil's Food Cake mix
1 1/4 cup water
1/2 cup oil
2 TB cocoa powder
1/2 cup of milk chocolate chips
1 1/4 cup heavy whipping cream
1 1/2-2 TB cocoa powder
3 TB granulated sugar
1. Preheat oven to 350 degrees. Beat cake mix, water, oil, eggs and cocoa powder on low until blended. Beat on medium speed for 2 minutes. Stir chocolate chips into batter. Pour into greased 8 or 9 inch round cake pans.
2. Cook for 25-30 min or until done and house is filled with heavenly scent of chocolate.
3. As cake cooks, beat heavy whipping cream, sugar and cocoa powder in a chilled bowl until stiffened and thick. Spread cooled chocolate delight with equally delicious chocolate whipped cream icing. Enjoy large piece with glass of milk.
4. Work out next morning.
Wednesday, May 27, 2009
Since then, the boys have been roaring and making dinosaur claws and pretending that they are different types of dinosaurs. Samuel will ask, "What dinosaur are you, daddy?" And daddy will say something like, "Oh, I'm a...T-Rex!" And Samuel will respond, "No, you're a stegosaurus!"
This afternoon the boys were absolutely convinced that they heard a dinosaur downstairs. It was hilarious to listen to them! It all started because of a drilling type noise on the floor below us that made a really strange sound:
Samuel, gasping, "What's that noise?!"
Zakkai echoes gasp and question, "Wha's dat noise?!"
Mommy: "I think someone is drilling downstairs. Probably Ivan. (our janitor)."
Samuel shakes his head, "No, mommy. That's not right. It's a....dinosaur!!"
Zakkai with wide eyes, "A dinosaur!"
Samuel and Zakkai talk amongst themselves for several minutes, while all is quiet downstairs on the dinosaur front. Then suddenly, we hear the noise again!
Zakkai: "It's a T-Rex!!"
Samuel: "Yeah, mommy, that's a really big T-Rex downstairs!"
Both boys run to the window, positive that they are going to catch a glimpse of the elusive, gigantic T-Rex that lives on the 2nd floor of our building. He's a sneaky one!
Shhhh...don't tell them!
Tuesday, May 26, 2009
As I sat here and thought about all of the wonderful, usually "little" things that I accomplished this week that made me feel SO productive like running errands, babysitting, cleaning the house, entertaining guests, making several new delicious meals....(wow, I'm tired just thinking about it!) this is what came to my mind:
Motherhood is full of joy. It is also filled with pain. You are gifted with the smallest and most vulnerable of God's creation to love and raise with wisdom and patience. It is an awesome responsibility, one that I feel privileged and terrified to have all at the same time.
Motherhood is joy because of the smiles, laughter and hugs. Chubby hands holding your own, kisses from sweet baby lips, tickles on soft, velvety skin, listening to high pitched little people voices and praying over them and watching the soft, even rise and fall of their chest as they sleep peacefully. Amazing. Your heart swells with so much love and tenderness, pride and protectiveness that it almost hurts sometimes. I would absolutely, in a heartbeat, die for my sons.
And yet, Motherhood is also filled with pain. My own mother-in-love told me this before we had children but I didn't understand then. I do now. You love this small person so much and pour out so much of yourself into them and when they look at you defiantly and yell, "No!" or hit you or look at you with anger; you feel pain. When you have to discipline your child because you only want the best for them, you feel pain. When you make mistakes as a parent, there is incredible pain.
I don't often feel that I have much to "toot" about myself as a mother, often focusing on my mistakes and need to "do better" and "change," but I do know this: I love my sons with every single breath that I have, through the frustrating moments and times I want to rip my hair out to the moments where my heart melts and is a puddle around my tired, aching feet. I LOVE my children and that deep, unshakable love causes me to want to be a better person, to change and be the best example I can be for them. Being a mother has made me more selfless, more kind, a better listener, a stronger person because I have to be strong for them, more mature but most of all, it has helped me better understand the love that God has for me. I love being a mother and THAT makes me want to toot my own horn!
Monday, May 25, 2009
February 20th, 2009 (2 years old)
Once upon a time, all was quiet on the crib front.....until one day when little Z decided to climb out of bed to play with his brother...
May 22nd, 2009 Construction in Progress (2 years 3 mos)
After much debating and praying that Z wouldn't hurt himself again....
We decided to take the plunge and set up the big boy bed.
Almost done. Good work, daddy!
The boys were SO excited and probably already planning their nightly parties...
All ready for bed! (7:45pm~later than usual)
Already getting to bed later than normal, we were in for a night.
Forewarning: Waaaaaaaaaaaayyyyyyyyy too excited:)
Even if they did look sweet in their new beds...
2 hours later, they gave up
Thursday, May 21, 2009
So we stopped and these two ladies started talking about how they were volunteers at Mercy Hospital two days a week and how much they loved cheering people up and making a difference. They had THE most beautiful smiles and honestly, their pure souls just shone with the light of Jesus. I could tell from only a few minutes in the conversation that they knew Him! So I commented to one of them, she was older and VERY tiny, what a gift from God it was that they were blessing others. They LIT up and nothing came out of their mouths but praises!
The tiny lady proceeds to inform me that she just had her 97th birthday! I thought I heard wrong and my mouth dropped open; very unladylike! I told her I didn't believe her! She was incredibly beautiful, with braided white hair, smooth brown skin, blazing white teeth (had to be dentures!) and so bright-eyed! The other lady with she was her daughter and they lived together and volunteered together.
Mary Ellen, the mother, told me they call her Mother at the hospital and send her in to rooms with patients feeling discouraged or hurting and she brightens up their day with her smile. She has NO arthritis and is saving a little piece of her birthday cake, with the number 97 written on it, in her freezer to take out next year and eat on her 98th birthday. She told me to look for her on the Smucker's show where they highlight people who turned 100.
Mary Ellen, I'll be looking for you on tv in 3 years! I want to be just like you when I get older! Bright smiles, glowing eyes and shining with the love of Jesus! We parted and I was blessed to receive hugs and kisses from both of them and blessings over me as a mother. What a gift!
Wednesday, May 20, 2009
Mr. Encourager and Snuggler, a.k.a. Big Brother!
We are having a pretty fantastic day! We had a wonderful mom's group today! I am really excited because now our wonderful Miss Athaliah (children's pastor) is watching all of the kiddos upstairs so the moms can have mommy-time downstairs. Now we get time to do some talking, praying, encouraging and have interrupt-free conversations! (if you're a mom, you'll totally understand that!)
Follow a great morning with some peeing on the potty, add some sunshine and warm weather and you've got a Rockin' Wednesday!! And my sis and her hubs said they might come visit over the weekend which makes me SUPER excited (can you tell we don't get company very often??!)!!! Oh! AND the hubs (mine) is proposing his dissertation topic today!! He sauntered out of our building lookin' pretty snazzy, if I do say so myself! We are very excited and thankful to be starting the last leg of this LOOOOONNNNNGGGGG educational journey we've been on.
So, how's that for a pretty good day? Hope you're is great, too!
Tuesday, May 19, 2009
I want to treasure these moments with my boys, my gifts from God! I am thankful for sunshine, and grass, beautiful days, and picnics and most of all, little sweet boys that smell like the outdoors and have sticky hands!
Monday, May 18, 2009
Welcome to Not Me! Monday! This blog carnival was created by MckMama. You can head over to her blog to read what she and everyone else have not been doing this week. This week there are many things I did not do!
I did not dance joyfully this week when my mama called me to say she was getting me a new phone for my birthday because my old phone is not a piece of junk! I most certainly have not dropped my old phone on numerous occasions and am not contemplating getting my new "baby" a cell phone cover "just in case." Because I don't care about my phone that much! Really.
I did not come into my sons' bedroom a few nights ago to find my toddler jumping in his brother's bed and most certainly did not freak out! And yet, even though he is climbing out of his crib, I definitely am not contemplating breaking out his big boy bed because I am not crazy enough to wish many sleepless nights upon myself.
I am not waaaaayy too excited about my new email address and spent 2 hours last night changing everything over. I would not spend that much time on something so silly, knowing I need my beauty sleep! And you can be sure it was not pretty much the first thing on my mind this morning, causing great excitement to see if anyone wrote to my new address. I'm not THAT silly!
That's it for today's Not Me Monday! Hope you're having a beautiful day!
Sunday, May 17, 2009
Phone number? No way! That's what your phone contact list is for. Grocery needs? I hope I wrote it down on the list...Rent's due on what day? Programmed in my phone. You think I'm kidding? It scares me sometimes how "mushy" my brain is! Here I am living in a highly academic community with REALLY smart friends and not to mention my genius husband and me? My brain's been mommyfied.
I'm determined to help my poor soggy brain though. Yes, sir! I am re-organizing my life. More structure, goals and....what was I talking about? See, mommifying in action. I have to write lists to remember my lists. I even ask my children to help me remember things! You know it's bad when you ask your husband, who can barely remember to tell his mother the important details of his life, to start reminding you to do things. I need help!
My name is Heidi and I have been mommyfied.
Friday, May 15, 2009
The one I blogged about yesterday? Yeah, this hunka two-year old has figured out something reeeeeaaaaallllllly cool (insert sarcasm)! So last night, the boys were in bed having their "quiet" reading time before lights out but things started getting awfully rowdy. I went in to tuck them in and found the little scamp pictured above......in Samuel's bed.......jumping.....
Yeah....It's great. He almost broke his leg this morning climbing out of his crib again. Seriously. He has a huge welt/bruise on the front of his ankle from where he got stuck. Lord, help us! We're in trouble!!
Samuel is keeping an eye on that rascally brother of his. He calls to me about every 3 minutes to let me know that he "thinks" Zakkai might be getting out of bed. He's probably right:) Samuel wants to be a good boy so bad right now and earn prizes. His motivation is this little cool hot wheels car waiting in the prize bucket. He wants it so bad he can almost taste it! He was "trying" to be so good yesterday and was begging for the prize but wasn't quite hitting the mark. I caught him sitting on top of our deep freezer and when he didn't get down right away after I asked him, I said it again in a firmer "mommy-voice." He started wailing, collapsed in a heap on the floor and said, "Mommy! Don't SAY that! It hurts my heart...."
Not much else going on other than a busy week this week except Ben is doing really well! He is still recovering and not feeling himself yet BUT he is starting to smell again for the FIRST TIME in almost 3 years.....think about that......It almost brings tears to my eyes to watch him eat and drink because it's a whole new experience when you can taste and smell again:) We are thankful and praying that the surgery continues to work!
Thursday, May 14, 2009
Spunky. Full of Life. Chatterbox. Ticklish. Obsessed with Rays. Eater of lots of Food. Sweet. Precious. A Gift. Unique. Ours.
Tuesday, May 12, 2009
Monday, May 11, 2009
Mother's Day 2009
Sunday, May 10, 2009
To a truly beautiful woman, inside and out. You are one of my best friends. A woman who has seen many trials and has relied on God's grace and strength to overcome them. You have fought harder and suffered more than anyone should have to and yet you still have one of the most beautiful hearts a person could have. You are filled with grace and dignity, wisdom and discernment, selfless love, kindness, compassion and the many other amazing qualities that make you so wonderful. I am so thankful and so incredibly blessed to call you my mom. I hope to raise my boys and any other children we have with the same quiet strength, unending patience, neverending love and heart filled with compassion that you have. I love you, mom.
Ben's Mom: April 2008
Even after 9 1/2 years of you, 6 as my mother-in-love, I still learn more and more what a big, loving heart you have. Your heart is filled with such a powerful, incredible love for your children and their families. Your mouth is always filled with praises and thanksgiving to our Lord and with constant, faithful prayers for us. Your eyes fill with tears of love and blessing. Your arms are always open with a warm embrace. Your words speak encouragement, life and God's blessing over your family. Your hands tenderly raised the son I now call husband and gently touch the heads of your grandchildren. You are such a beautiful person, inside and out and I am so blessed to have you as a mother. I love you.
Friday, May 8, 2009
Here are the boys playing with their train table, tracks set up by yours truly:) No, Zakkai isn't wearing a bib, it's one of his blankies tied on. That would be daddy....
Wednesday, May 6, 2009
The other day at Cosco, we saw a container of popcorn kernels, just waiting to be popped; all 12 1/2 lbs of them! These wonderful childhood memories came flooding in and we agreed to take this new found treasure home with us. Because you can never have too much popcorn in your house, right?
So after the boys' naptime, Ben popped some corn for a snack for all of us. We don't have a fancy smancy popcorn popper but we make do with a nice little pot and a lid; works just fine! The boys stood on a chair and watched with the same breathless anticipation that I had as a child, waiting for the first, "Pop!"Enjoying our special snack!
The other day, the boys decided to practice somersaults for us. Samuel, who recently took a tumbling class, somersaults with all the grace and ease of a gymnast, while Zakkai......well, just see for yourself:)
(I tried to splice all three together but blogger won't download it for some reason!)
Tuesday, May 5, 2009
Let me say, first of all, that blood does not make me cringe, I can watch trauma stories (on tv), have held my little boy while he was throwing up but last night? When I saw Ben all drugged up on anesthesia, with an oxygen mask, throwing up blood (sorry), I went as white as a sheet and plopped myself right down in the chair. There's NO way they would've sent home a half drugged surgery patient with his fainting wife. Can't you just picture them pushing two wheelchairs side by side? Anways...
Ben was very sick last night and REALLY out of it. He was incredibly grumpy, which was funny because he is NEVER that way! All he wanted to do was sleep. He downplayed the whole thing before the surgery, acting like he was going to be able to walk home by himself (which you're not allowed to do!) an hour to hour and a half after surgery. Um, no. It took him 4 hours after surgery to be awake enough to be discharged. We got home around 8:45pm and it took awhile to get him settled in. We both slept off and on, in between doling out pain meds and getting drinks, etc. I slept out on the couch because I knew I wouldn't sleep a wink and would be staring at him the whole night making sure he was okay.....I didn't sleep well anyways:) He called out to me at about 1:00am. I leapt off the couch and flew into the room, with my heart beating a mile a minute....only to have him ask what time it was:)
He is doing well today, just very tired and in some pain. He's pretty swollen in his nose area, which is to be expected, but has great hope that the surgery worked and he will be able to breathe again! We appreciate all prayers for him as he recovers.
The boys are C.R.A.N.K.Y. today. I know, hard to believe! I think it's because it was a weird, long day yesterday, they got to bed later than normal and were up earlier than normal today. They were curious to see daddy this morning and to give him careful kisses:)
Here's a few funny things they've said in the past few days: Yesterday when I was getting Z dressed for the day, I put on some dk blue/grey striped socks and he lifted up his foot and said, quite happily, "It's my wittle zebra toes!" Everything is "wittle" these days. (little) He points out big "wittle" dogs, his "wittle" legs, "wittle" pieces of food, etc...
Samuel asked the other day why daddy needed a pickle to play his guitar with! He was very offended when I laughed because he was very serious:) He has also been very imaginative lately. He travels places on his bicycle and in his Thomas tent. Usually he goes to Turkey! Or Boston or Albuquerque... (all places Ben has traveled this past year)
And Zakkai is such a talker! I took him with me to a dr.'s appt last week and he talked the ENTIRE way there, in the waiting room, the whole way home...He talked about the buses, cars, museums, going to 'hio, oranges. Pretty much anything that came to mind! And of course, he charmed the nurse and the doctor:)
I hope you're all having a good tuesday. I'm off to catch a small nap while ALL my boys are down....
Monday, May 4, 2009
Welcome to Not Me! Monday! This blog carnival was created by MckMama. You can head over to her blog to read what she and everyone else have not been doing this week. It's been awhile since I've done this but I thought I'd give it another try....
I have not been staying up really late for the past few nights (okay! months..) which may or may not make me super tired and/or cranky in the mornings. I wouldn't do that because I know I need my sleep!
I was not super cranky at my husband this morning (because I'm not like that!) for being waaaaaaay too chipper about having surgery today. I was definitely not nervous and still aren't because I know he's in Perfect Hands. I always trust God so easily. I am not making that up, promise!
I was definitely not grumpy at my toddler this morning for wading through my freshly clean folded piles of laundry because after all, it's only laundry! Kids will be kids, I always say....or not...
I am most certainly not tempted to go finish off my piece of the Chocolate Gooey Cake (mentioned in last post) and then pretend I didn't have dessert and have some more tonight. I have WAAY more self-control than that! Especially when it comes to chocolate. I definitely do not have a chocolate addiction.
Thanks for reading Not Me Monday and helping me relieve some of my anxiety about my hubby! Not that I'm nervously wasting time and watching my phone like a hawk. I'm NOT!
Sunday, May 3, 2009
Friday, May 1, 2009
Many funny things from my many small boys today. We were driving down Lake Shore to the store and we came upon Navy Pier. Samuel spied the Ferris wheel and said, very excitedly, "Look at the BIG steering wheel, mommy!"
I answered about 365 questions on the way to, in and home from the store. No, really. You think I am exaggerating? You really should come spend a day with us. It's amazing the answers that I pull out of my ear for this child! I'd better start reading up on some subjects or sooner or later my son is going to figure out that I don't really know anything at all. Z is starting to ask a lot of why questions, too but the nice thing is, he is very happy with one answer and a smile and change of subject:)
While I was answering one of the many questions on cars,driving, and honking rules, we came to a stop at a red light. We had just heard someone honk at another car due to impatience (I know, hard to believe around here, isn't it?) and S is quite fascinated at the thought of honking. We were stopped, waiting and Samuel said, "Why don't you honk and make that car in front of us move?!" I tried not to laugh and told him that we were all stopped at the red light and we didn't need to be honking at people at that moment. Goodness, is this a sign of the future driving my sons will be doing?! If so, let me declare it now: They will not be getting their licenses until they are 30! At least!
Things I really enjoy while driving with my boys:
- Looking like I am having a very important conversation with myself when I am, in fact, answering the many, many questions asked of me by the little people. aka: uninterrupted talk time:)
- Looking in the rear view mirror at a sleepy little pumpkin face and doing everything I can to keep him awake
- Giving dangerous drivers dirty looks if they threaten the precious lives of the little people in my backseat. Of course, I don't really do that....
- Listening to the boys talk to each other about the tall, dirty buildings, trucks and museums they are seeing out the windows
- Just being a mommy:)
I hope you're all looking forward to a good Friday night, too!!